By Denise Le Fay, Transitions – April 30, 2013
http://deniselefay.wordpress.com/2013/04/30/please-is-april-2013-over-yet/
Is it just me or was April 2013 an unusually horrid month that just went on and on and on and on…? My gawd it’s been unbelievable in both highly positive ways, and highly miserable ways throughout April.
This simultaneous building of polarized extremes has always been freakishly interesting and frustrating to me during these amplified Ascension years, but in April 2013, it’s been extreme and very trying at times.
Things have been both intensely positive and simultaneously negative since the first Equinox (March 2013) energies came in post 12-21-12, which I sense is “normal” for what’s happening until the different multiple worlds and timelines rip apart from each other and go their separate ways later this year.
And who knows, maybe April 2013 was preparation for May 2013, I suspect it was and I suspect once we’re in May we’ll be glad for all we experienced and had to deal with throughout the Twilight Zone-like month of April! But it still amazes me (and it certainly should not at this point) how large the consciousness gaps between people has become and how trying and oftentimes downright difficult it is for most everyone when forced to interact and communicate with someone whose barely within range of being in the same species group as you!
The rubber bands are stretched about as far as they can be now and we’ve still got five more months of this before they break free of each other. Get your Zen on and keep it on because this is some “crazy weird shit” we’re dealing with!
About every three months now my personal range of who I consciously know myself to be expands a bit more; plateaus for 2–3 months which gives me time to adapt; then it expands a bit more and so on. This is of course wonderful and exciting but honestly, kinda weird too because The Whole Picture expands and shifts a bit more every time this happens.
It’s always good to intellectually know something, but it’s an entirely different situation when you actually embody it, whatever “it” is at that time. For me “it” has been about consciously integrating more and more of who I am at quantum and multidimensional levels of being into this Denise awareness, body and timeline.
It’s much like attending a rare physical Family Reunion and meeting your distant relatives that you’ve never met before and/or didn’t even know existed. I’ve been Seeing, perceiving and communicating with other aspects of me/Me/ME that exist in the divine quantum “Now Moment” and some of them are rather amazing. Please don’t misunderstand me here because each and every one of you reading this have these same connections to the other amazing aspects of you/You/YOU as I do—as we all do.
Now that we’re post 12-21-12, it’s time for many of us at the Forefront to start consciously knowing more about ourselves and our extended multidimensional Spiritual Families, and/or Soul Group(s), and/or Star Families etc. and our ever-evolving spiritual Work with each of them and consciously embodying more of these different aspects into this life, consciousness and body.
Said very simply—I’m incrementally (those Stair Steps) “ascending” as more aspects of my Higher Self “descend” incrementally allowing us to meet/merge in this new, higher frequency space. This is all still an ongoing Ascension Process and I’m just reporting on the latest tidbits I’m experiencing and better understanding at this moment.
I know it’s not time quite yet for me to publicly share all of what I’ve been experiencing personally over the past seven months about this but I will when it’s correct to do so. ♥ But know that many of us Forerunners are in the Process of incrementally consciously embodying more and more of our Higher Selves into these bodies/lives/consciousness/personalities/timeline etc., which is as I said before wonderful, but it naturally causes repeated expansions and shifts in my/your/our consciousness which makes it (momentarily at least) a bit difficult to interact and communicate with the people who are not doing this now, or yet, or simply not doing it at all.
Because not everyone is focused on the same thing(s) or at the same level of awareness or development, there are a bunch of people who are being used, manipulated and directed to mess with those of us who are incrementally embodying more and more of our Higher Selves into our body/being/awareness/lives now. Any person or group of people who are perceived to be a threat to Team Dark are attacked in different ways, and at this point it’s usually through certain humans. In my case, since 2000 it’s been mainly through certain neighbors because I’m at home the majority of the time and don’t “socialize”. So when I’m doing what I do as a Lightworker/Starseed/Creator Being etc., Team Dark directs some human(s) that vibrates within the frequency range they currently do to buy or rent a house as physically close to me as they can to interfere with me, try to derail me or attack me, which is the negative ‘Smash and Grab’ tactic we’ve discussed in other articles.
Having said all that, I also know from many years of personal hand-to-hand combat with Team Dark (nonhuman, nonphysical beings and the physical humans too) that every time I/you/we experience another big upsurge in negative individual attacks and/or larger collective ‘Smash and Grab’ attempts that it means we’re about to make another big positive shift forward and that’s why these last-minute negative tactics by Team Dark.
Another VERY important aspect of these negative Team Dark ‘Smash and Grab’ attacks on us individually and collectively now are actually VERY positive. Don’t forget that we’re still within the profoundly important Nine Months period which is—believe it or not after all many of us have been working on internally for over twenty years—a grace period, an extension period of our Life Review that happened at a quantum level at some time during the ‘Three Days of Darkness’ of 12-21-12, 12-22-12, 12-23-12.
Because so many still needed a bit more “time” within physicality to consciously connect more of our old inner issues—wounds, fears etc. and transmute, integrate and neutralize them—we were given these profoundly valuable and important Nine Months (from 12-21-12) to continue our individual Life Reviews to get ourselves more clear energetically and neutral before the time do such extensive Inner Work winds down from the intense level it’s been at for so many years. So, despite whatever you have gone through since 12-21-12 and certainly since 3-20-13 looking and feeling and actually being genuine attacks from the Negatives/Team Dark, understand that they also are at higher levels the means for me/you/each of us to fully resolve, transmute, consciously realize and understand whatever it is that me/you/each of us needs to during this Nine Month extension period.
So yes they are ugly, nasty, stupid, repulsive etc. ‘Smash and Grab’ attacks upon many of us individually, and/or collectively, BUT at higher levels they are our individual Gifts to get ourselves free and clear enough to embody more… much more! Use the negative attacks to heal yourself; to transcend it all; to transmute, understand, and know so much more. Use the negative crap and attacks etc. at higher levels to literally propel yourself right out of Duality and Duality consciousness. Don’t make the mistake of believing that the unpleasant negative crap and attacks that have been happening in your life since 12-21-12 are only about whoever or whatever it is that’s causing you pain and/or frustrations because it is not. At lower levels it is a hand-to-hand combat situation, but at higher levels it’s really our personal ticket to freedom and empowerment so USE the miserable shit n’ crap n’ junk n’ idiots that at first glance looks, sounds, and feels like it’s something else entirely. It’s Initiatic, so take advantage of the “tests” popping up on your Path to get yourself where you need to be during this Life Review extension period and beyond.
If you too have experienced amazingly positive, uplifting, soul satisfying inner growth and conscious re-connections with some of the higher aspects of yourself and your extended Spiritual Family or Soul Group — AND have also been experiencing being attacked again by some unaware dumb-ass human(s) on autopilot being controlled by lower frequency ego, emotions, awareness and nonphysical Team Dark beings — then know that this means we’re making tremendous progress and some really great stuff is about to manifest because of it. There’s more to come but we’re “golden”… even when we forget that fact. ♥
Denise
April 30, 2013
via Golden Age of Gaia
